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Greetings friends and followers,

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve, it's astonishing how this year has flown by. In a few weeks we'll be starting a new year full of many possible exciting adventures and times ahead. 2014 started out rough but it's drawing to a miraculous end. I've been through a lot and overcome more than I thought I would be able to handle. I owe a lot of that to my wonderful friends. I'm very blessed to have so many amazing people in my life who push me and support me during my most darkest of times.

This year has been filled with so many blessings that I can't even begin to describe how great the years has been. From getting out of a dead end job and finding work with a better environment, a job I enjoy going to, even if it currently sucks right now due to the Christmas rush lol, but still great due to the awesome people I get to work with and the best part of it being drama free. I love my job. Getting rid of a junker car and being able land myself a brand new car that is reliable enough that I don't have to worry about getting back and forth to work. Granted its harsh on my budget but I can handle that for the since of relief that I don't have to worry about it dying on me. Removing toxic people from my life. Getting my mind cleared from the fog that had descended upon my psyche. Opening up to new people and trying new things. Traveling out west to meet family I'd never met before and spending time with them. (and currently missing them like crazy) Losing a friend and gaining a new best friend. Creating new things, making new costumes and improving my skills. Joining a group of heroes who dresses up and goes out for charity events with kids. I very much have enjoyed this year. So many amazing things have happened. I know I am a rambling mess but I blame that on my busy past few days at work. They've gotten me all out of sorts. lol.

Anyways, I hope that everyone has a great Christmas filled with love and laughs and time with your loved ones. I'm going to try and do the same. I do have one request though. If all my friends could do me this favor it would mean the world to me. The day after Christmas (the 26th) is my mom's birthday. She would have been 51 this year if we hadn't lost her back in 2011. If you could please say a prayer for her or wish her a happy birthday. It would mean the world to me. Even if you didn't know her. She was an amazing mom and my sister and I miss her dearly.

Speaking of my sister, she's having a little boy in the next couple of weeks! I'm going to be an aunt, again. :)
I know that I've been away for a while. But I just wanted to let everyone know that life has become super busy what with working, getting back into my photography, costuming and volunteering with the Heroes Alliance. I just wanted to let everyone know, or at least those that are still around and care that I'm doing just fine. Just super busy. :) I miss the few people that I regularly spoke with. I do plan on getting back to this site at some point. I try to check in occasionally but the majority of the time when I'm online I forget b/c my time spent on the internet is no where near what it use to be since I've started doing all this other stuff.

To give a bit more about the Heroes Alliance, for those that are curious or don't know what it is, it is a non-profit organization that goes out and does charity event for kids. The members dress as superheros from the Marvel and DC universes. I am the groups Raven, but I also have Black Canary on my list in case she is ever needed. But I am very happy with being Raven at all the events. The kids really seem to love her. :) I can post a few photos in my gallery to show you my team. They're freaking awesome, I'm very glad I joined their ranks. It's wonderful being able to inspire the kids and giving them a chance to meet their favorite heroes. I'm working on a few other costumes for the Alliance and even for the con season next year. So far I am planning on doing:

- Helena Wayne's Robin
- Pixie
- Demon Raven
- Steampunk Barbara Gordon Batgirl
- Dark Ms. Marvel

the line up is subject to change depending on my funding, but they are the costumes that I hope to have finished. I am still working on the secret cosplay that I was planning for DragonCon that never got finished thanks to the ever unprofessional loser that I commissioned my mask from. Guys let me tell you, I ordered my mask for this costume in JULY and STILL have NOT received it. DO NOT ORDER FROM LOGANPROPS!!! He's always talking up how great his work is and all these gigs he's gotten, but he is seriously unprofessional! To have his items listed to be shipped within three days on the site, then you email him to ask about your item and then it takes him forever to get back to you. I am very close to filling a claim to get my money back. I was going to do it a week ago but he finally emailed me and said it would be ready for Halloween. So I'm giving him until then and if he doesn't have it shipped by then I'm filling a claim to get my money back. Thank god I know a great many of friends in the cosplay community that know how to do these things, best believe I will be utilizing their talents for any future costumes I have planned. I already have a friend of mine working on my mask for Robin.

Anyways, back to the costuming grind. With Halloween just around the corner I have a lot of work to do. What are you guys doing for Halloween? I will likely be doing Raven and walking around.

Long time no post!

Hope that you all have been doing well, things have been crazy busy on my end.
Between work, preparing for cons, and getting ready for my birthday I've been a busy bee.
I did a photoshoot with a friend of mine on the 12th and 13th, then worked 8 straight days at work, then it was off to MomoCon (23rd-25th) then monday had to be at work at 9:30 am. And now I'm sitting at a week away from my birthday trip.

I managed to get my Dark Rukia cosplay finished in time for MomoCon, we had a good trial run with her.
Though I'm going to have to remake the collar, because it was too tight around my neck. And the scythe was a hit! Huge props to my good friend Derick for making it. You can check out his work over at Mildar Props.

MomoCon was a blast! I had a great time hanging out with my friends and meeting up with old con pals and making new ones. I always meet some of the most interesting people at Cons. Friday I started out with my bleach group, Rukia, Ichigo, and Rangiku. Then changed into Raven and my friend did Bumble Bee. We managed to meet up with a Jinx and did some epic shots together. It was great seeing two rare Titan characters. XD On Saturday I started out the day with my quick Nana cosplay, then changed into Dark Rukia for a couple of hours, then had to quickly change into Raven for the DC shoot. Had a BLAST at the shoot go to meet so many new people and made a friend out of one of the Harley's. Before changing into Raven my friends and I sat in on the Script Reading of The Matrix featuring the cast of the animaniacs, the brain, and even Ruffiiiiooooooooo. lmao. It was freaking hilarious and the only panel we decided to catch for the con. Definitely worth it.

Here is a link to the script reading for those interested!


Sunday after two days of crazy fast changes I decided to go with normal clothes and walk around and take photos of everyone. Browsed the dealer room and bought a few things. Over all a most excellent convention. I can't wait for DragonCon and AWA in Sept. Got some great cosplays planned for those. Already got one of my cosplays for DC nearly completed, just have to finish one more piece for it then I can start working on my secret cosplay for DC. It's going to be most epic!

Next Wed I turn 28! I'm getting so old! lol. And then the day after I fly out to San Diego to stay with family for a week. I'm super excited! I can't wait to have awesome adventures on the west coast. My cousins are taking me to an amusement park and then an asian market in LA. Gonna FINALLY get to meet my roomie! :iconaimonsallyencore: We've been great friends for longer than i can remember and now I finally get the chance to meet up with her and hang out! I'm very excited!

Hmm...not much else has been happening...

So how have you guys been doing?


Sorry for the long silence. Things at home weren't going so great which resulted in loss of our internet for a bit.
Luckily we have it back now so I can update you all on everything.

My friend, Josie (who is also my self appointed sewing teacher) and I have begun work on my Dark Rukia cosplay for MomoCon in May. Which I'm really excited about. :) I can't wait to see how it turns out. :)

I've been working very hard trying to raise money for my move to California...and yes that is still happening. Come Oct it'll be goodbye east coast hello West Coast. Which I'm very excited about. Yesterday I finally was able to book my flight for my birthday trip out there to visit family and friends. I'll be out there about a week and enjoying the time with family and trying to line up some work for when I move out there. I've already sent my itinerary to my cousin who is to be picking me up at the airport I think everyone involved is pretty excited. lol. but moving on. In between working on cosplays for Momo and preparing for my trip in June I've also been trying to book more shows and photoshoots.

On Saint Patrick's Day I was actually able to pick up my first show for the year. I ended up getting the pass to shoot MSI which was totally awesome and funny enough they were the last band I shot last year. So it was pretty perfect way to start off a new year of shows. I'm hoping to land a few more in between everything else I have going on. I miss shooting concerts. =\

Um...well I think that's about it for tonight. I'm a lot more tired than I realized...oh! some friends and I are going to the Ren Fair on the 19th which I am totally psyched for! I haven't been to one in years! So this will be great fun!  but yeah...i think it's time to turn in for the night.

So we're two months into 2014 and thus far things have been going just fantastic! A lot of exciting new things are happening and I can't wait to see how things go in the coming months.

To start off the new year I let go of all the things that were keeping me weighted down in 2013. I've moved on from all the pain, drama, and bullshit of last year and embracing this new year with a fresh start.

I'm working extra hard to get up the money I need for everything I have planned for this year. Starting with hoping I land a photopass for the MSI show on St. Patrick's Day. Gearing up for Momocon in May. Getting everything together for the cosplays I have planned for it. Then my birthday trip to California to visit family and friends in June. Being freaking excited for seeing Lindsey Sterling in July. Saving for cosplays for Dragoncon and AWA in Sept. Preparing for my move to Cali in October. And a few other things that might come up in between now and then. I'm looking forward to all of it and I know I'm going to have to keep working my ass off to make everything possible. I'm very happy and blessed to have the love and support of my bf, friends, and family for this adventure I've set for my life.

Oh yeah! lol I've also got a new bf who isn't a total tool or jackass like the last one. I hadn't planned on starting any relationships or getting attached to someone what with me moving and all, but it just sort of happened. And I have to say I'm very glad it did. He has been supportive of my plan to go out and live my dream. He's sad that I'll be gone for a while but still wanted to try. I adore him. He's very much like the Moonlight Knight that cosplays. It's nice not feeling old and feeling like I don't have to be mature enough for the both of us. XD

Hmm...well I think that's it for now. Will update more later!

take care,

I know that with each passing year millions of people make New Years resolutions, and half the time they never really stick to them. Or they do for the first couple of months but then fall back into old habits later on. I have never really been one to create a list for such an occasion but I have been one to set personal goals for myself throughout the year. There has only ever truly been one resolution that I've stuck to and that's to be a good person. To help others when they need it and do good in the world where I can. And each year I never find myself disappointed. Because I essentially pride myself on being a honest and caring person. I may be very blunt at times and lord knows I have a temper on me when people piss me off, but at the root of it all I do my best to care about people.


Last year was a very hard year for me. I had a LOT of ups and downs, but I learned a lot and soldiered through the hard times. I strayed from my dreams a bit over the coarse of the past year but better believe this year I will be getting back to them. I've already started drawing up my list of goals and the steps on how to achieve them. There are so many things I want to experience, places I want to see, people I want to meet. I want to get out and enjoy life to the fullest. I want to rekindle my passion for photography and writing. I want to get out and enjoy the outdoors and go camping more. I want to spend time with the people I rarely get to see due to either lack of funds or work or too great a distance on my crap salary. To find a new job, a better paying job that allows me to be creative without too many rules. Don't get me wrong I love the people I work with, well the majority of them, but the job itself hasn't been challenging me at all in the past couple of months so it's become routine and boring. I want to be able to go to more conventions, learn how to sew my own costumes and create new things.


This past year I lost who I was, I grew lazy, and nearly gave up on so many of the things I use to love. I will not allow that to continue through this year. I'm putting the past behind me and focusing on the new and exciting things the year holds. I plan to decrease the amount of caffeine I drink, because lord knows I'd never be able to fully give it up. I want to eat better and get back into shape. I'm by no means calling myself fat, b/c I know that I'm not. But I do need some serious work in re-toning my muscles and building up stamina so that running or jogging for a short distance doesn't leave me wheezing or short of breath. Once I get my bills squared away and some debt caught up I want to start taking yoga at this place my friend Allison told me about where they work with silks. It looks like so much fun and I know I would enjoy it.


If things go according to plan this may be my last year at going to Con's here in Ga. I do plan on still hitting all the main ones for this year: Momocon, Dragoncon, and AWA. And I will be working extra hard on getting my cosplays for this con season completed on time. Now, if things do work out I will most definitely return for Dragoncon in the future. So that I can see all my wonderful Con friends, you guys have no idea how much joy and wonder meeting each of you has brought into my life. I definitely have to thank one person for introducing me to this fabulous community, Cody you are the best my friend. If it hadn't been for you telling me about Momocon back when we worked at walmart together. I doubt I would've met some of the totally awesome people I've met over the past three or so years. 


Now having mentioned this may be my final year at Ga conventions, I want to elaborate a little about it. The details have not been completely worked out as to exactly when I will be moving or for how long. But I'm looking to be in California sometime around October. That's the goal and I will start preparing for it immediately after tax season, so that I can get all my debts and all squared away. Now we all know that I typically do a trip or plan something awesome for my birthday and this year I had originally planned on taking a road trip but as I have done so many of those before, I decided early this morning that I needed something different. So this year I plan on saving up and taking a week long trip out to California to get a feel of the area I will likely be moving to by the end of the year. Also to see my family in Oceanside and who knows I may even visit Disney while I'm out there. *shrugs* Only time and amount of money I can save up will tell. Now for those that have often asked me what I wanted for my birthday I want to say this, all I want is to get to Cali. So money, gift cards, are the best thing. Because it would all be put back for my trip out there.


But let us not focus on how sad it will be of the prospect of my leaving, because this is something that I've dreamt about since 2000. I know that it's a bit of a sad thing to think about as I've lived in this area and on the east coast the majority of my life, but for those that know me...know that I haven't felt at home here since my last visit out there. That I haven't been able to stay in one place too long without it driving me absolutely crazy. That especially in the last few years, I've always loved to travel and learn and experience new things. Let us focus on those positive things!


I just want to say how very blessed I am. To have the chance to do so many awesome things: conventions, traveling, meeting some of my childhood heroes. To know so many fucking fantastic people and have the greatest friends anyone could ever ask for. To have a strong support system of friends and family who have encouraged and inspired me throughout the many years of knowing them.


May we all have a wonderful New Year with new and exciting things to come! Let us push through all the struggles and focus on the light as we find ourselves shrouded in dark. And never forget life is a gift that we should cherish. Don't let the hardships that come our way keep us from living, because as a very wise many once wrote...



"To live would be an awfully big adventure..."

Barrie, J M. Peter Pan. Hodder & Stoughton, 1928, Act V, Scene 2


Who knew that in such a short amount of time after having your heart broken you can find yourself feeling better and nearly on top of the world with everything going on. It's true what they say when you weed out the negativity in your life things turn out to be far better. I find that I no longer feel constantly stressed, drama that overflowed in my life is gone, and no more lies and bullshit. It's been absolutely fantastic. When everything went down I was talking to several friends and one in particular was able to help me more than I ever could have imagined. He listened to my every word, he was there whenever I needed him, each day he would check on me and do what he could to make me laugh. Thanks to him I feel lighter, happier, and ready to take on the world. Grey hair and all, yup due to all this i have about 2 inches worth of grey roots. Which honestly doesn't bother me, but it does surprise people considering my age. lol. So yeah life is going a lot better these days. I still have my typical stress from bills and all but that I can handle, now that I don't have the added stress of my old relationship. I have to admit that I never imagined after having my heart shattered, that I could end up falling for someone so soon. I'm not talking just a crush, which is what it started out to be, but as time went on and I got to know him a little better and spent countless hours talking to him via skype about life, about comics, about past experiences...I'm definitely falling. Now don't fret I'm not jumping into anything anytime soon, there are things that make it rather complicated plus I'm still trying to get everything settled in my life again with work and all. But I can say that I'm very happy with just being friends with him until the times comes that we can try at a relationship. Rest assured friends I'm on the right track for a bright future.

Since the split I've been able to dive fully into my cosplays and I've been churning out ideas for next years cosplays. Weapons have been commissioned, pieces for the outfits have been pooled together into a wish list and waiting on money to be able to be ordered. Recently my attention was brought to a group, the Heroes Alliance, that goes out to hospitals and spends time with the sick kids dressed as superheros I really would love to get involved with them. It's such a great cause.

The cosplays I have lined up for next year:
:bulletred: Dark Rukia
:bulletred: Raven/Spock crossover
:bulletred: Pure Raven
:bulletred: fem version of Nightwing.

I'm currently getting ready for Cosplayers on Ice, which is December 8th, and I'm hoping to pull together a winter outfit for Raven so I don't freeze going out on the ice. :) I've never been ice skating so I'm really looking forward to it and seeing my cosplay buddies again. It's always great seeing them. I just really hope my idea for the cosplay pans out so I don't end up freezing. lol. Anyways, that's about it time i get ready for that thing called work. another two night of joy. haha well later peeps.

Having recently taken on the role as Raven from Teen Titans in my cosplay area I decided to create a group on facebook for ALL Teen Titans Cosplayers. Heroes, Villains, and Honorary Titans alike.
The purpose of the group is to give us a chance to get to know each other and share our experiences at cons, tips on costumes, and ALL things Teen Titans.

Negative comments or behavior will NOT be tolerated. We're all here to have fun, we all have a common interest so there should be absolutely NO harsh tones featured here. Any comments brought to my attention will result in your immediate dismissal of the group.

I want this to be a place of enjoyment and fellowship. We're all Titans so let us unite!

So if you're a Titan cosplayer please feel free to check it out. If you know any Titan cosplayers please share the page with them. :)…

Dragon*con was a TOTAL BLAST! I can't wait for next year!
I have so many ideas for cosplays.

I found out rather quickly though as to why i never really would wait in line for Panels at previous cons i had attended. While at Dragon*con I ended up sitting for several hours in a couple of the panel lines. for Star Trek: The Next Generation, SG-1 reunion panel, Bobby Nash: reading, and Pinky and the Brain. And b/c of standing in those lines I ended up missing a great deal of the people and cosplays that were scattered about throughout the five hotels the Dragon*Con stretches out to. Sure the panels were great. I mean Garrett Wang was in the TNG panel, which is the only reason I agreed to sit through it having met him at GMX last year I had to see him again. Didn't get to talk with him though. The SG-1 panel was cool. I mean you had the crew including Mr. Richard Dean Anderson himself. And they spent a solid 20 mins talking about farting on set... so it was priceless. The reading with Bobby Nash was just me showing support to a friend who is an author and fellow podcaster. But instead of reading from one of his books we actually spent the hour or so talking about Batmans and who wore it best. lol. Which was highly entertaining. And the Pinky and the Brain panel was totally worth the wait. I mean I got to sit in a room with the men behind the character voices. Rob Paulsen was an absolute riot! It was great seeing him again as well.

Friday I was suppose to have had my picture taken with John Barrowman but due to Atlanta traffic and closing the previous night at work we slept later and left later than i had intended. Luckily the way they ran things it was ok if you missed your time b/c you could go the next couple of days so it was Sunday before I got my photo chance and oh boy was it exciting. Waiting in line and seeing him in person was just INSANE! I was beyond giddy. And when I stepped up to have my turn with him he pulled me close and said "alright just you, we're gonna snuggle" then i put my arms around him and his went around me and his hand slid down and grabbed my ass! I shit you not he grabbed my ass! My ass was grabbed my John FREAKING Barrowman! Sure he was grabbing boobs and all that jazz to the people before but they were requesting it. Me I just walked up shyly in my Raven cosplay and he did this all on his own. Needless to say I was bragging about it for the rest of the con and even now. lol. the bf didn't like my reaction to it but fuck it. I didn't care. and as it stands now it doesn't really matter. (more on that later in the journal)

Met up with some old peeps and had a blast. I got to meet many new friends. Along with getting stopped ever so often for photos as I was in my Raven cosplay. it was great. And I have to say even seeing about 15 other Raven's at the Con it wasn't discouraging at all. Each time I passed one we'd wave or share a smile or geek out or call each other sister! I even had one ask me how i made my belt and we shared tips and all on costuming and everything. It was so great. I realized that Dragon*con is very different than other cons I have been to. Everyone is super friendly and supportive. There is no elitism and there was no "BITCH that's my costume why are you wearing" type deals. Which sadly to say i have seen and heard at Momocon and AWA. Conventions and Cosplay are about having fun and meeting new people who share the same interests as you. Who cares if they are dressed as the same character as you are, it's better to make friends with those people! I know I kinda regret not getting any of the names of the other Raven's that I saw. They were all super awesome.

I was also very fortunate to be able to meet the man behind Teen Titans Comics since back in the 80's, Mr. George Perez. He was absolutely amazing! It was definitely one of the highlights to my con experience. but the best aside from meeting John Barrowman was just a simple innocent photo request. My bf and I had been sitting outside the Marriott waiting for my friend Cody to meet up with us. And this couple walked up to me and asked if they could get a photo with me and their daughter. I agreed got up and posed for a few photos with her. The poor girl was so nervous I could feel how tense she was when i put an arm around her before the shots were taken. so to put her a little more at ease i asked "Would you like to hold beast boy" and held out the kitty plush to her. Her face lite up! It was so adorable. You could see how happy she was. After the photos were taken she turned and thanked me as she handed him back and walked away with her parents. I stood there watching as they walked away and thought to myself. 'This is why cosplay is so important. It brings these characters to life and allows young ones to see their favorite characters in person and have these moments to cherish. It helps inspire them to continue reading the comics or watching the shows and inspires them.' I definitely plan to continue cosplaying even if it's just to inspire the next generation of geeks. All in all the weekend was great. It was an interesting experience taking marta to and from the con got some interesting looks from people while i was in cosplay. it was funny.

now on to the part i promised to discuss. remember the guy I have been dating for a little more than a year off and on? well he was with me for Dragon*con and then when he left for home yesterday we kept talking and I stumbled across somethings on line that i brought to his attention and he went overboard saying how he was sick and tired of me bringing shit up and blah blah blah. then as i'm in tear already over what i have found i get this message from one of the girls he had promised he would never talk to again. turns out she had been LIVING with him for the past two months and they had been sleeping together. And apparently she had proposed to him in august. all the while he was still dating me and lying to both of us. She and I talked and put all our cards on the table and then I confronted him about it. He tried to play innocent until I told him who I was talking to and what she had told me. Then he admitted to it. Needless to say he and I are no longer together. And while I had taken him back in previous times this time I don't see it happening. Not after this. This is far beyond the last time so I know that I definitely can't trust him to be faithful nor honest. However as it is we both run a podcast together and i have no intention of backing out of it so that leaves me with moving on and just putting him into the friend category. And I have to say we did much better as friends before. But first I need to focus on me and get everything in my life squared away. Thankfully I have the support of my amazing friends and family and with it I can get through this and find myself again. I'm done with dating for a while. I need to get my goals and dreams back on track.

We're 11 days away from Dragon*Con!!!! I'm slowly freaking out b/c my Raven cosplay is not complete yet. The belt is finally coming along but I still have the cloak and boot coverings and the hand pieces and broach to do. I also still have to pack and get everything in order. Which means I probably should clean my room that way I'm able to find everything.

I've finally finalized my Dragon*con line up as far as cosplays.

Dalek dress
Raven (teen titans)
Lt. Rukia (Bleach)

and also will be wearing a custom made shirt a friend of mine is making me for the Podcast I work on.

Since the beginning of the month I've been putting together a list of guests that I really hope to meet and using it to countdown to the Con. We're down to #11 and tomorrow will pick up with the top ten. So if you're interested please feel free to head over and check it out! And feel free to add me as a friend.

um...what else. Oh yesterday I shot my friends wedding. I made more in one day than I did working two weeks at Wendy's. =\ I really wish I could get my photography business built up so that I can finally leave. Work has gotten ten times better but I'm sick of it. I'm not learning anything knew and I feel like I'm wasting my time when I could be doing more creative and challenging things. While I enjoy the goofing around with my coworkers it's just not worth it. Plus I don't make near enough to pay everything I have to pay. It's really stressing. But other than that things are going alright. I'm also getting ready for AWA at the end of September.

So what's new with you guys?

Hey guys, the other night myself and a fellow podcast member had a chance to sit down and do a LIVE chat with the amazing Grace Jeanette. You all might know her from her spot on the "NaNaNa" and "Sing" music videos by My Chemical Romance. Along with being on the tv show "Majors and Minors". The interview was for the Death Star Canteen Podcast's  "Behind the Mask" segment that I myself run. I had planned that it would be a short interview with her about her start in performing live, acting, singing, songwriting, etc... but then as we started talking the next thing I know I look down and 2 hours had passed. Be sure to check it out and share it with any fans of My Chem that you might know or anyone that would be interested in general. There is a possibility that we will be doing another interview with her in the near future. :)

"Behind the Mask" with Grace Jeanette -

That's right I only have 37 days to get my Raven cosplay together before Dragon*Con! Luckily i ordered the wig, leo, and tights the other day and the wig and leo have shipped so they're on their way here and should arrive soon! Waiting on the confirmation for the tights. Went out today with my lil sister to get the fabric for the cloak and stuff to make the belt. really hoping it turns out. Gonna be using resign to make the jewels for the belt so hoping that it goes well. have never used the stuff before so it'll be a learning experience for sure. luckily the bestie is suppose to help me. and I think his gf is gonna help me sew the cloak. Hoping to have everything done by the end of the week. *fingers crossed* I can't wait to do a photoshoot in this cosplay! I'm so ready for it to be done and together. Dragon*Con is gonna be totally badass!

In other news, there really isn't much to tell. Things are still a bit heavy. But I'm staying focused on the Con to try and keep my spirits up. Hope you all are doing well. OH! and just a side thing. I WANTS A BB KITTY PLUSHIE! It'd be so cute! I may have to figure out how to make them so I can have him for D*Con.
Been a long while since I posted any journals. Have been super busy with life stuff: work, family, work, finances, stress, and looking for a new job b/c my current one sucks ass. but anyways, aside from all that I've also been preparing for upcoming cons. Specifically Dragon*Con and AWA. I had originally planned that I would be doing Crysta (Ferngully), Dalek (Doctor Who), and Noodle (Gorillaz). But recently I've been doing a lot of thinking and I have a feeling I may hold off on Noodle and focus on another cosplay that was recommended to me by my older brother. This cosplay being Raven from Teen Titans.

On my last day off I headed down to Athens and hit a few thrift stores, hobby lobby, micheals, and a few other places. But didn't have any luck in finding much for my noodle cosplay I had originally planned to do. But I did manage to find a few things for Crysta and Raven. I had gone to hobby lobby in search of arm bands to finish off my dalek cosplay, which I found and managed to get for basically BOGO. And while I was there I wandered over to the patterns and fabrics and realized they had their McCalls patterns for .99 cents a piece! So I checked out the pattern book and found two that I would need for my Dark Rukia cosplay I'm planning for AWA at the end of Sept. But luckily one of the patterns (cape) I can actually use for my Raven cosplay as well! So I was pretty stoked about that find. I ended up getting out of their with spending less than $10. Which was awesome! Then headed over to Micheals and looked around and picked up a few keychain things for my photography and to help promote the Death Star Canteen Podcast that I work on. So in the near future I'll be offering up keychains of some of my concert photos that I have taken.

Bands that will be featured:
Marcy Playground, Linkin Park, Incubus, MSI, Blue October, Sugar Ray, Everclear, The Birthday Massacre, Dir En Grey, etc... I'll be posting photos of the keychains soon. I'll also have some with the Death Star Canteen Logo in them.

hmm...what else. Not much has been happening on the home front other than work. I've been looking for a new job b/c shit has just gotten so out of control. We've had four people quit on us leaving the rest of us having to do 3 different jobs at once. Like the other day for example: I was on the front register, and i was having to help the newbie register operator AND help the new sandwich maker all during LUNCH RUSH! It was hell! I'm so sick and tired of my job and pray I can find a new one soon. Well time to finish this episode of Teen Titans and get ready for work.
Attention all Killjoys!

It's time dust off those ray guns and don your masks! The release of the True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys comic is quickly approaching, we here at the Death Star Canteen Podcast are going to be doing a featured spot on our page to help promote it's release. But in order to do this properly we're going to be needing a little bit of help from all you killjoys out there in the zones. What we're wanting to do is to have a sit down chat with a small collection of you, for our "Behind the Mask" segment. The chosen few will join us for a live broadcast where we will discuss the preview released on Free Comic Book Day along with what we can summize from the posts that Becky Cloonan has been sharing via her twitter page along with many other things. Those not chosen will for the segment will be featured in another video showcasing the millions of killjoys out there that will be posted to our youtube channel.

If you are interested in being a part of this here is what you need to do.

1) To be entered you must submit two photographs of you decked out in your killjoy gear. A full body shot and a close up shot. We ask for original characters as to not infringe on any copyrights. (cosplays of the fabulous four: Patry Poison, Jet Star Kobra Kid, Fun Ghoul, will not be accepted for this promotion. creativity is key!)

2) Tell us a little bit about yourself: name, age, location, and what inspired the creation of your killjoy persona. We ask that you also provide your killjoy name and tell us a little bit about this alter ego.

3) Send your submission to With the subject "Killjoy Promotion Segment Submission".

And that's it! Simple right? Good. Now the deadline for these submissions is June 9th. The lucky few chosen will be contacted by segment producer, Commander Ravyn, no later than June 11th to set up a date and time for their portion of the segment. We look forward to working with you and seeing all your creative work.


The Death Star Canteen Podcast Crew


In other news tomorrow is my birthday! I'll be 27 and spending the day with some pretty AMAZING people! A small group of my peeps and I are going to Six Flags over Ga. Stay tuned for photos and links to video footage of the fun!


Sorry for the radio silence on my part you guys. Been super busy with work and life in general.

I don't think I've announced it publicly on here yet, so first off Converse1172 and I are no longer together. So SJ is single again and while I miss having that someone always there. I honestly need this time to find myself again. I lost a good bit of the true me in the relationship and became someone I never thought I would be. So I'm going to focus on me and get myself squared away and focus on my career. Since the split I have felt less stressed and have been able to focus more on my work and my friends.

My photography has finally started to pick back up, which I'm extremely happy about. The past couple of months I had gotten into this funk to where I came dangerously close to selling all my camera equipment and giving up on it completely. I have to thank Converse1172 for pushing me to continue with it and forcing me to do shoots when I really didn't want to do them. Things may have turned sour between us as a couple but he always encouraged and supported me fully with my career choice and my dreams. I'm eternally grateful for that. I also need to thank all of you guys for your support and kind words. For liking my work and commenting on  it. I'm very grateful for all your support as well. I owe you guys so much and should I ever become famous I'll remember every single one of you. :)

In just the past month or so I have had the privilege of working with my good friend :iconjon-lombardi: doing a shoot with him in his Tofu furry suit, in promotion for an interview he's going to be doing with the Death Star Canteen Podcast. (more info to come on that soon!) photos can be seen here…

I had the honor of shooting a car show honoring my Uncle Henry and raising money for the local fire department that he was a part of for many many years. The Nova he was working on before he lost his battle with cancer was featured in the show, his dearest friend finished the car and takes it to shows in his memory. You can see photos from the show here…  

For all you Mindless Self Indulgence fans, on April 9th I was able to shoot their show in Atlanta for You can see those photos here… I was very lucky to be able to stay after the show and meet the band. Meeting Lynz was the highlight of the past few months for me. Being able to talk with her and receive a hug from someone I look up to as an artist. It was an incredible rush. And the rest of the gang really had me laughing. Their show allowed me to finally get out of my head and enjoy myself. I owe them so much. I can't wait for the next show! lol

This saturday I'll be doing maternity shots for one of my cousins. and I have a few weddings lined up for the near future. I also got word that I may be shooting Warped Tour in Atlanta.

On the side I'm also working on the Death Star Canteen Podcast, working very hard on getting the podcast itself back up and running while maintaining the page we run over on facebook. Conducting interviews, lining up photoshoots, and all that nifty behind the work stuff. :) It's been great fun and I really enjoy working with the cast. Do me a favor and check us out over on fb… Be sure to like the page to stay up to date on geeky goodness and exciting contests/interviews and everything.

Along with all this lovely bit of stuff I spend about 28 hrs a week at the thing called my part time job at Wendy's. It's hell but as a struggling photographer gotta have a source of income coming in to fund the trips and all those lovely bills that we get as adults. A lot of you know that I had been having issues with my car, you'll all be glad to know that I unloaded it on my dad and got myself a new car with the money from that. Got me a 2005 Dodge Stratus, runs great. Actually have to go make a payment on it today. lol.

lets see...what else.....

um....that's about it. basically been working constantly luckily i'm a multitasker so I can work and watch tv at the same time when I'm home. lol. And I do take breaks so I don't feel too overworked. But I have to stay busy otherwise my mind goes to places it doesn't need to.

Hope you all have been doing well! Be sure to comment and/or send me a message! I miss chatting with you all.


Which Sailor Scout are you?

Journal Entry: Wed Mar 13, 2013, 9:08 PM

☽ Sailor Moon:
[ ] You're a Cancer.
[x] You're really quite short for your age
[ ] You are a hyperactive person.
[ ] Your weakness is cute boys/girls & junk food.
[x] You're very emotional & always seem to be crying over something.
[ ] You have a black cat.
[x] You hate school, & your least favorite subject is math.
[ ] You always seem to be late.
[x] You may be kind & loving, but you are very jealous
[x] You try to do good.

Total: 5

☾ Sailor Chibi Moon:
[ ] You're the youngest of your group of friends.
[ ] You have/had pink (in your) hair.
[x] Your hobbies are painting/drawing.
[ ] You have a total sweet tooth.
[ ] Your favorite colors would be red & pink.
[x] You're typically childish & stubborn.
[x] But you can be selfless, kind, trusting, & wise beyond your years.
[x] You make friends very easily.
[ ] Your mother is very childish/not mother-like.
[ ] You wish you were from the future.

Total: 4

☿ Sailor Mercury:
[ ] You love school & are quite good at it/You have no least favorite subject.
[x] You are always stressed out.
[x] You love the color aquamarine.
[ ] You're sign is a Virgo.
[x] You have/had blue (in your) hair.
[/] You are quite shy, & find it hard to make friends. (Sometime ^^; )
[x] You are always very kind & helpful towards everyone.
[ ] Your favorite sport is swimming.
[ ] Your mom is always working.
[ ] You want to be a doctor/nurse when you're older.

Total: 4 1/2

Sailor Mars:
[x] You have a bad temper.
[ ] You hate learning about more modern history.
[ ] Your dream job is to be a singer or model.
[ ] You have dated someone your friend had a crush on.
[ ] You have a friend you're always fighting with.
[ ] You can run in high heels.
[x] Your favorite color is red & black.
[ ] You love fortune-telling.
[x] You used to be a complete loner, but now you are popular. (not really popular, but i do have a lot of friends)
[ ] Your sign is an Aries.

Total: 3

♃ Sailor Jupiter:
[ ] You hate airplanes.
[x] You're a tomboy, but have a girly side.
[x] You've always been taking care of yourself & are independent.
[x] You're very strong-willed.
[x] You're a troublemaker, or so people think.
[ ] You're one of the tallest of your group of friends.
[ ] Your sign is a Sagittarius.
[ ] You have an ex who you're always thinking about since everything reminds you of them.
[ ] You have dated a lot of people.
[/] You love cooking more than anything.

Total: 4 1/2

Sailor Venus:
[ ] You have a white cat.
[ ] Your favorite foods are Japanese foods.
[ ] Your favorite colors are red & yellow.
[ ] You love to exercise.
[ ] You are very cheerful person.
[ ] You love singing & want to be a singer when you're older.
[ ] You're good at almost any sport.
[ ] You're an only child.
[ ] Your sign is a Libra.
[x] You would fake your own death.

Total: 1

♅ Sailor Uranus:
[x] You have short hair, enough to be mistake for a boy.
[ ] You love watching cars race or you race cars.
[ ] Your sign is an Aquarius.
[ ] You're into the same sex as yourself.
[x] You're easily annoyed by people.
[ ] You have a very dry sense of humor.
[ ] You enjoy running.
[ ] You have a girlfriend.
[x] You love to confuse people.
[ ] You're a huge flirt.

Total: 3

♆ Sailor Neptune:
[ ] You're average height for your gender.
[ ] You're very elegant & lady-like.
[ ] You are into the same sex as yourself.
[ ] You have a girlfriend (or if boy, boyfriend) that you just pretend is a good friend.
[x] You are very selfless.
[ ] You're a Pisces.
[x] Your least favorite food is mushrooms.
[x] You love music more than anything.
[ ] You have/had green (in your) hair.
[x] You can play an instrument of some sort.

Total: 4

♇ Sailor Pluto:
[ ] You're a Scorpio.
[ ] You want to be a fashion designer when you're older.
[ ] Your favorite color is dark red.
[x] You drink green tea.
[x] You are not the best at playing music.
[x] You are quite blunt with your statements.
[x] You enjoy sewing & cooking.
[x] You would be considered a loyal friend.
[ ] If you could have one superpower, it'd be to tell the future.
[x] The bug you hate the most are cockroaches.

Total: 6

♄ Sailor Saturn:
[x] You are by far the shortest of your group of friends.
[x] Milk disgusts you.
[x] You enjoy reading more than anything.
[x] You hate working out because you're considered weak.
[ ] You're an only child.
[ ] You have very few friends.
[ ] You're a Capricorn.
[ ] You're a very shy person.
[x] You live with your father.
[x] You care for others & appreciates sincere friendships

Total: 6

So apparently I'm a mix of Pluto and Saturn.....yeah I could totally see that.


Warm Bodies, a MUST SEE!

Journal Entry: Sun Feb 3, 2013, 9:46 PM


The minute I found out the local theater had presale tickets for "Warm Bodies" I headed over immediately after work to purchase mine and Converse1172's tickets. He's been wanting to see it for a while and after finding out that the main character 'R' was played by the same guy that was 'Marcus' in the movie "About a Boy" with Mr. Hugh Grant, I was really looking forward to seeing how much he had changed/grown as an actor.

Upon meeting up with my bestie and his girl we headed into the theater were idle chit chat happened as the preview rolled on the screen. As the lights dimmed I was on the edge of my seat with anticipation. I seriously didn't know what to expect. The movie was absolutely AMAZING!

Nicholas Hoult's character "R" was very well written and he has definitely grown as an actor. The character never really spoke much for the first bits of the movie, aside from the dialogue of his thoughts.  The role definitely required a lot of physical comedy, much like what Kunal Nayyar does with "Raj" in the Big Bang Theory. Not many actors are skilled enough to pull it off.

The love story itself I have to say reminded me a good bit of Shakespeare, and yes there was a balcony scene. Cliche I know, just like all these posts talking about things being "a better love story than Twilight". Which while it's most definitely true, the saying itself is getting old. But aside from the cliches within it the love story was very sweet and different. You really connected with "R" and his struggle to be 'Alive'.

I think my favorite line in the movie was his best friend saying "Bitches, man.." In my mind the line completed "Bitches be crazy" So many Big Bang Theory quotes popped into my head during this movie. Granted other references also popped up throughout the movie, another thing that made it so great. Definitely a must see for nerds, geeks, and zombie lovers alike. I HIGHLY recommend it to anyone that wants a good romantic/comedy. I honestly would love to go see it again.


crazy making heartbreak...

Journal Entry: Wed Jan 23, 2013, 9:08 AM

The past few days I've needed some serious My Chem and Blue therapy. Things have been super stressing and I've barely been hanging onto my sanity and keeping myself out of my depression.

I've been listening to specific songs to help keep a smile on my face (even if it's a fake one) and keeps me going. I wont go into detail b/c I'm not one to really air out all my personal issues, but last night shit hit the fan. Someone I thought I could trust pretty much betrayed me and lost all respect/trust I held for them. Normally I would say fuck it and kick them to the curb b/c I don't like being hurt, nor do I like being played like a fool. B/c I am no fool. I saw the signs and could read them easily.

I knew something was up and what I found.....just made everything I've been dealing with ten times worse. After everything I did for this person I didn't deserve that stab in the back. But you know what, I'm not going to let that betrayal destroy me. No. I may be unstable for a while yet, but I'm a strong woman. I've been through so much shit in my life had so much put on me and had to grow up very quickly at a young age, I know I can overcome anything that comes my way.

In this situation I did confront them and busted them and called them out on everything. Expressed nearly everything that was going through my head at the time, b/c honestly my mind was a jumbled mess as we talked. I've decided not to throw this person out of my life, but they'll definitely have to work hard to earn my trust back.

Just a little word of advice to you all out there. It's never a good idea to do something that is going to break the trust of someone who has done everything they could for you. Supported you in every way they knew possible. And especially when they have serious trust issues already, you did something right to snag the trust of someone who only has a handful of people they can depend on...don't be an ass and blatantly betray their trust by doing something stupid. B/c you may never regain their trust and 96% of the time they wont even consider giving you another chance. Be faithful to those you care about, be loyal, be a TRUE friend.

I think I've rambled enough. I just needed to vent and let out some steam before I had to go into work and force a fake smile to my face. If you read through all of this I thank you. And to the amazing person that was so kind enough to call and talk to me during all of this. I greatly appreciate it. You know who you are. :hug:


Con season is nearly upon us...

Journal Entry: Tue Jan 15, 2013, 11:35 PM

I have to say I'm extremely excited that Con season is slowly approaching! Granted I'm not thrilled that my car is causing me so much trouble and draining my funds so that I'm unable to use said money for these Con's...but it'll all work out somehow. Anyways, so my plans for Momocon, march 8-10th, are going to be Abby Scuito from NCIS (complete with Bert and Calf-Pow cup!) and Lt. Rukia Kuchiki. I'm planning to do another cosplay but I have yet to decide what I want to do for the third day. =\ So many choices! lol.

For future Con's...hopefully AWA I'm wanting to work out getting my stuff for Dark Rukia. *fingers crossed* I was hoping to do it for Momo but with all the damn car issues I've been having I wont have the money. I will likely do Rose Tyler again at some point. Our planned Con's to hit this season are Momocon, MTAC, AWA, GMX, and hopefully Dragoncon. That's are hopes at least. But we'll have to see how money goes when the time comes around.

I also recently thought up an idea for next years Momocon trip. But I will say very little about it here b/c I don't want to spoil it. I'm very excited to see how it turns out and have talked with a few close friends who are going to be the best ones to help me with the planning/sketching/making process of this cosplay. ;)

In other news....

This weekend I hope to be shooting Emilie Autumns show at The Loft....that's only gonna happen though if I can get my car up and running again before hand. If not I'll have to pass it on to a friend/sister.

Sunday is a very special super important day! It is the birthday of my dear :iconconverse1172:. :) So feel free to spam his accounts with birthday wishes. XD I'm very glad I was able to get off for his bday.

ermm.....that's about it I'd say. My brain is slowly shutting down for the night. and My love is sitting next to me yawning like crazy as he's playing his Fable 3 game. lol.  Until next time my friends!


2013...big deal

Journal Entry: Wed Jan 2, 2013, 11:43 AM

So the new year has started. The past few days have been a little rough. One of my dearest friends lost her mom. She'd gone out to get the mail and just collapsed. They called the paramedics, they did CPR and rushed her to the hospital. She was on a ventilator for a while but there was so much brain damage they took her off it and she passed away peacefully.

I've been really worried about Heather, years ago she lost her granny and just had a complete breakdown. And having lost my own mom going on 2 yrs ago. I know what it's like to go from losing a grandmother you loved so dearly to losing your one and only mother. It's rough. Then on top of worrying about her, I've been struggling with my own depression with my mom's birthday being the day after Christmas and then waiting the few weeks for the upcoming 2 yr anniversary on the 9th of her death. Adding the loss of Mrs. Carol, who was like a second mom to me since elementary school. It's been like I can't catch a break. I'm barely hanging onto my sanity and faking smiles left and right. Having Jason here has helped but there's only so much that can take my mind off things. I just try to keep busy with working and playing the games I have on my Kindle....

I just hope this depressive feeling will go away once the 9th has passed. I hate feeling down all the time. It sucks. oh well...hope you all are having a wonderful new year.